Hmmm...

So this is the best I've felt all week (i.e. "OK") and i have no idea why.  i wish i had better control over my moods.   anyway, i'm documenting the fact that I did not think of suicide even once today, which is a gulp of fresh air.  This is important for me to note, so that I can later see that it's possible not to feel like a corpse.
sunday night, busy week ahead, and i haven't even had to take my sedative...who knows what's going on?  won't look this gift horse in the mouth.  Just hoping that this bodes well for the rest of the week-month-year...OK, maybe one day at a time.