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so i have realized how good she is at playing games.  on the 27th we had a talk and i fell for everything she had said thats becuase she needed somthing and again i did it becuase i love her.  and when i reached out to her i got nothing not even a reply.  it's crazy how i have to get burned like 3-4 times before i catch on this has been happening since she left.  she was super nice to me when she knew i was going to but her stuff to the curb and then she was sweet.  she got what she wanted and bam ice queen.  i don't want to be mean back to feel like a man.  but man do i feel like some times i want her to feel what i feel.  just once konw how hurtful she was.  her own family has turned on her again and she deserves that.  so thats funny to me but said becuase when her family says those things like she is dead to me i say back with come one dont say that your family.  But she was a drug user before I cam into the pic.  she has been clean for over 5 years and her family let her back into her life.  she didn't do drugs while i was in the picture but now i feel like she is back on them.  it's aweful to know thats whats happening and i care for that woman even after all the pain she has cuased me i would do anything for her I know i'm the fool but doesn't mean i dont care.  she was my wife and i loved her very much.  i would take her back in a heart beat and all of her family keep telling me no don't do it.  but man i miss her here i miss her smell her laugh i miss hearing how she loves me the hugs the feeling of knowing she was my wife.