I feel this emptiness inside, this hurt, this pain. Will made me feel special, he made me feel like the only girl in the world, he told me he was going to move back here and we would be together, and we would be happy and perfect... I was trying so hard not to let my feelings get away from me, not to get ahead of myself..just in case. But I did. My emotions got the best of me and now he's gone. I don't know why. November 10th we talked all day, we set up a skype date for the 11th, sometime around 11am he said, I was excited, I woke up the next day and waited to hear from him....and waited....and waited.... and I haven't heard from him since. He's posted on facebook, liked things I've posted... but... he hasn't spoken to me. Did she find out? Is he ignoring me because of her? My heart is breaking and I don't even know why! I want to yell at him, I want to tell him how much he's hurt me, tell him that if he never felt the way he said he did he shouldn't have said those things, and if he does still feel how he said he did then yell at him for making me feel this way because it hurts so bad.... At least if I knew why... maybe it wouldn't hurt so bad. I feel like the one thing that gave me true happiness is gone. I see things and think of things and they always remind me of him. Sorry to be explicit, but I can't even masturbate or have sex because I think of him and it hurts. I think of how much I miss him and I want to be with him. Why must he do this to me. Why. 
 
Add 577 days to sobriety count that was only restarted due to an accidental sip at a party.