Wednesday

Oh how I wish it was Friday already!  Another boring day at work and it's driving me crazy.  It makes me so tired having nothing to do and still trying to look busy.  But I am thankful that at least I have a job that pays well and covers my monthly expenses.  Without this job I don't know what I would do.  I keep checking the local want ads but there really isn't anything out there right now that pays what I make or that is within a reasonable driving distance.  If I wanted to sit in traffic all morning I could always go to work in DC but then what kind of life would I have. 
Being bored also makes me feel bad because I just sit and think about Gene every minute and all that I've lost in my life.  I miss him so much and somedays I still can't believe he is gone.  I have dreams about him (I had one last night) and wake up feeling sad and lonely all over again.  I really thought I'd be doing better by now, but everything reminds me of Gene and then the sadness sets in and I can't seem to find the ambition to do anything.  Time doesn't seem to be healing this wound.  I think it's too deep.....