OK.  Made it through another day of work, only two more to go for the week.  I'm doing better tonight than I have in over a month.  My godson just called to say he's decided to become a nursing assistant and is starting college next month. This is a great accomplishment for him as he had dropped out of high school and has had a really rough time in the last few years.  He just recently took his GED and got such a high score that he received an award from the Governor.  We always knew he had it in him, now he knows too. My son called just to talk with me tonight.  He was at work and wanted to let me know he was doing better too.  It's been really hard on him losing his dad.  They were very close and my son looked up to Gene and is very much like him.  He's a great son and has become a very wonderful man. I miss Gene every moment of every day and it hasn't gotten any easier yet.  I cry alot, which helps a little, but being on DS really makes a difference for me.  I hope to look back on this journal one day and be able to see that I've grown from this experience.