Made it through another day at work.  Wow, that's two this week.  Small steps are so rewarding right now.  I can't get through a day without crying.  My heart feels so empty.  I'm not getting anything done around the house.  My neighbor and his son have been kind enough to mow my grass for me these past couple of weeks, but I'm going to have to get out there soon and weed and clean up from the winter.  I just don't have the passion for it right now.  I miss Gene so much, I just can't see my future without him.  This house is feeling really big and empty all by myself, and there's so much to do around here.  Not that I haven't done it all before, especially when Gene had his heart attack 14 years ago and again when he had his bypass 9 years ago.  It's just that I did it all for him and who do I have to do it for now.  Me?  It all seems so unimportant without him.