It will be four weeks tomorrow since I lost Gene.  I'm so overwhelmed with sadness.  I'm spending my energy just trying to get through every minute of everyday.  By the time I get home from work, I'm so exhausted.  I don' know how I'm going to go on.  It's just all too much to deal with. My big milestone this week was making it through his birthday.  I didn't handle that too well, but I did make it through regardless.  Why did this happen?  How could he be taken away from me so suddenly and so soon.  We had plans and dreams that will never be realized.  So many things he will never get to do or see.  I'm left feeling empty and alone.