Today is Gene's birthday. He would be 58 today.  Last night we had his favorite dessert, apple pie and ice cream. I'm feeling a little stronger today and will try to get some hours in at work.  I also meet with the grief counselor this afternoon.  I still can't even  think about cleaning out his clothes,  it's just overwhelming for me right now.  My son is trying to be so strong for me, and I try not to lean on him too often.  He is such a wonderful young man, and Gene's death has been very hard on him too.  We are both very lucky to have a great circle of friends that are helping us through.