Made it to work another day, but sitting here and all of a sudden my mind started thinking about calling Gene. He used to call me everyday on my way to work. Then the sadness overtakes me and I feel helpless and lost. I'm scared of being alone. I've never been on my own before. It's like he and I have been together forever. I can't remember a time when he wasn't there. I don't know if I'll make it through one minute to the next. I pray for strength and courage to get through this.