Made it to work another day, but sitting here and all of a sudden my mind started thinking about calling Gene.  He used to call me everyday on my way to work.  Then the sadness overtakes me and I feel helpless and lost.  I'm scared of being alone.  I've never been on my own before.  It's like he and I have been together forever.  I can't remember a time when he wasn't there.  I don't know if I'll make it through one minute to the next.  I pray for strength and courage to get through this.