Well, I made it to work this morning.  Big accomplishment considering yesterday was such a bad day.  I'm bored, nearly to tears, and wishing I had more leave time so I wouldn't have to be here.  I did manage to get some sleep last night, but I keep waking up at 3:30 a.m. every morning.  At least last night I was able to go back to sleep.  Gene used to call me every morning on my way to work.  I miss this call more than anything.  Somedays I feel like it's still all a bad nightmare, but then reality kicks me in the butt.  My girlfriend from NJ is coming down on Saturday and we are going to dinner at the restaurant where my son is the chef.  I'm looking forward to that and my HeartWalk for Gene the following weekend.  OK, one foot in front of the other and breathe.....