buh

what am i doing? am i doing the wrong thing or the right thing? is it wrong to be in love and not want to give it up? or is it right? is it wrong to want to go back to someone who has a problem controlling himself when circumstances trigger his disability? or is it right? hell, is it PC, then, since i'm not discriminating????
he sent me a recording of a song he had written and it was all about our breakup and the pain and some admission of his problem.
i don't know what i am doing. i want him, but i remember all the pain this time. i no longer have amnesia. i remember how much it has hurt, in part because it still does. i don't want to move on from him, but i can't go back to him just to be left and crushed yet again.
god i hope he gets help.