whoa
Most of my days have been good. I have these little "whoa" minutes every now and then. Just a little anxiety/jittery twitches. Not sure the reason. Just out of the blue.
I have completely blocked the exass on FB. I prefer to NOT see any of his bull crap. "Happy new family. Wonderful new in-laws. etc etc" Ok so if he is that happy why not just say all that without the "new" part. Then I saw replies from all the ex in-laws of mine telling him how happy they are for him. Excuse me while I puke!! Am I in the minority of people who know him and his lies? Or are they just too blind/ignorant to acknowledge he's a worthless, lying, pitiful excuse for a male species??
Just found out he did call both sons yesterday for father's day. One is a father. The other isn't. The one who isn't (younger one/26) said he left voice mail saying happy etc. and it was nice talking to him. Son just laughed! He hasn't spoken to him in pretty close to 2 years. The older one (28) with son said he had called but son ignored. Now we all know that he will tell anyone with open ears that he "tried". And, of course, that will make him a "good" dad. Again, gag reflex setting in!
I feel lost at times. Again, most of my day is good. Grandson keeps me feeling the love. It's the weekends when sleep is not happening that my mind wanders. Not to any of my past life. On to the future. I want to feel that love again. (If what I had for 29 years was love?) I want to matter to someone again. It's lonely here. Boohoo! Yea, I know. I don't need a man to make me whole. I have so so much love inside me to give to a man who deserves it and is capable of giving it back.
I am pretty much independent. I don't ask for help unless I can't do/fix what needs done. I have always been this way. But ladies you know how good it feels to have a man do for you every once in awhile. Am I right? I don't want the marriage thing again. Just the together every once in a while thing. lol
I have completely blocked the exass on FB. I prefer to NOT see any of his bull crap. "Happy new family. Wonderful new in-laws. etc etc" Ok so if he is that happy why not just say all that without the "new" part. Then I saw replies from all the ex in-laws of mine telling him how happy they are for him. Excuse me while I puke!! Am I in the minority of people who know him and his lies? Or are they just too blind/ignorant to acknowledge he's a worthless, lying, pitiful excuse for a male species??
Just found out he did call both sons yesterday for father's day. One is a father. The other isn't. The one who isn't (younger one/26) said he left voice mail saying happy etc. and it was nice talking to him. Son just laughed! He hasn't spoken to him in pretty close to 2 years. The older one (28) with son said he had called but son ignored. Now we all know that he will tell anyone with open ears that he "tried". And, of course, that will make him a "good" dad. Again, gag reflex setting in!
I feel lost at times. Again, most of my day is good. Grandson keeps me feeling the love. It's the weekends when sleep is not happening that my mind wanders. Not to any of my past life. On to the future. I want to feel that love again. (If what I had for 29 years was love?) I want to matter to someone again. It's lonely here. Boohoo! Yea, I know. I don't need a man to make me whole. I have so so much love inside me to give to a man who deserves it and is capable of giving it back.
I am pretty much independent. I don't ask for help unless I can't do/fix what needs done. I have always been this way. But ladies you know how good it feels to have a man do for you every once in awhile. Am I right? I don't want the marriage thing again. Just the together every once in a while thing. lol
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I hear you sister! You don\'t know what\'s around the corner - I don\'t even know if I want anyone - too much work!
Your doing great don\'t let him bring you down - glad you blocked them all.
You\'re doing great! But, totally under stable you long for someone to share your life and love with. Like KRK said, you never know what\'s around the corner.
13 grandchildren! YOu are a lucky woman! Do they live near you?
Only 1 grandson lives close. Rest on from stepdaughters in Florida