20161017

I haven't written in a while.  For some reason the words just would not come out..or maybe I just didn't have anything to say.  Things calmed down again at the house, as I knew they would.  The Durango left me stranded twice in one week.  The shop I had taken it to was really good about it when it broke down the second time.  They had a tow truck out to me in 30 minutes and gave me a free loaner while they figured out what they had missed.  I hadn't wanted to have a car payment again, but that thing was a 2004 and I just don't have the time to keep being stranded.  I didn't want to keep putting money into a car that was not mine either.  My boyfriend was willing to let me use it in trade, so I went out and bought a new vehicle this weekend.  It's a 2017 Hyundai Santa Fe Sport AWD.  I think I am really going to like having it, but I'm already a little freaked out about the money. 

I'm not actually having an anxiety attack but I can feel it near the surface.  It doesn't help that we have been out in a lot of public places like the car dealership.  I get the hot flash and nausea and start to worry that I am getting sick.  The weather is up and down, since we had our first rain in six months this weekend.  It was super windy and my allergies have been giving me really bad headaches.  I know I am not sick.  It's just enough doubt to keep it nagging at the back of my mind though. 

After all the stress I have been putting myself under, I got a 93% on my latest math exam.  What a difference this instructor has made.  I think I will start to relax a little on that front.  I'm almost halfway through the semester.  The last hard semester I will have.  I met with a counselor and I will have one class in spring and then I am done. 

I can feel all the changes that are coming this year. I am excited about it and nervous at the same time.  On the diet front I am up 5 pounds.  I have cheated quite a bit recently and I think the stress may have been effecting me also.  Hopefull I am back on track this week and it will come back off.