ANOTHER DAY
HELLO MY DEAR FRIENDS, LIFE DOES JUST GO ON WITH OR WITH OUT US,AS I HAVE LEARNED FROM LOSING MY DENISE ,I WRITE HER NAME AND MY HEART HURTS, I LOOK OUTÂ AND SEE THE LEAVES CHANGING AND FALLING ,AND THINK MY DENISE CAN NOT SEE THIS ,AND WHY DO TREES DIE AND COME BACK EVERY YEAR, I FELL TIRED AND SAD AND DO NOT LOOK FORWARD TO ANOTHER HOLIDAY SEASON, I KNOW THAT MY DENISE DENISE WOULD NOT WANT ME TO SUFFER SO, BUT THAT DOES NOT CHANGE HOW I FEEL , AND I THINK BECAUSE OF MY HEALTH ISSUES IT DOES NOT HELP, AND I AM A LONE A LOT,SO NOT MUCH GOING ON IN MY LIFE NO FRIENDS NO FAMILY THAT COMES AROUND ,SOME TIME MY GRAND DAUGHTERS BUT THEY JUST REMIND ME THERE MOTHER IS NO LONGER HERE, THEY HAVE SO MANY PROBLEMS AND I HAVE MADE SO MANY MISTAKES IN MY LIFE AND I CAN NOT CHANGE A THING , I KNOW LONGER EVEN TRY TO SEE A LIGHTER SIDE ,O I DID TRY , BUT IT NOT REAL THIS IS REAL AND I AM THANK FULL I HAVE MY FRIENDS HERE THAT UNDERSTAND, IT IS WHAT IT IS,AND IF I CAN HELP AND ONE ELSE I WILL, BECAUSE AS I HAVE SAID BEFORE WERE ALL IN THE SAME BOAT JUST DIFFERENT WATERS,
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Hi Shirley,
My grandmother always told me you must keep to your
old roads and stick to your original friends and just go
through smooth, be careful and stay positive.
Love Ya, Barbara
Baby steps hun,try not to let it all overwhelm you.Break goals up into smaller sections to make them managable.Most of all know that you are not alone,your online friends may not be able to hug you in person but we are still good listeners.As for the christmas season i must admit i just dont do it anymore lol.
Shirley I\'m so sorry you are feeling so sad. I believe Denise sees all the beautiful fall scenes probably even much better than we see them. Our children that have passed are still with us. I truly believe that. WE can\'t see them but they can see us and sometimes they let us know in the most extraordinary signs. Sending you love and prayers for your peace or heart. Terry
Hey Shirley
You\'re not alone.
Brad
You are never alone dear one. ((hugs))
Yes, here you can be real and feel the love also.
((hugs))
Those changing leaves....these up coming holidays......my heart hurts along with yours,,,our daughters can see the leaves,,,they are by our sides...I am here Shirley and I love you....
Shirley,
You\'re concerned about friends,because you\'re such a loving person.
Some day your grand daughters will realize how great your are.
Love You,
Mary
Yes Shirley, you have us. Without all of you, I never would have gotten through. I stopped my therapist I need someone who KNOWS. All of you are my therapists. I too am dreading the holidays. I think ailwe always will. Love you, Gail
Sis you have such a gentle heart thats your nature, you have seen me through some bad days, my heart aches for you regarding Denise, but as iv said before i do believe you will see her again one day. Im here for you always, love and tender hugs, your susie x
I so wanted to comment when you wrote this message. I am sorry you are feeling down. I lost my dam pass word (misplacing everything lately). I was out shopping in a store where my parents used to shop today. They both passed one after the other in 1998. In the beginning I could almost see them going down the rows with their shopping carts when ever I shopped where they used to. That stopped over the years, but the same day you wrote your message, the feeling came back to me. I so wished they were still with me. I helped them when they were sick, I know that they would help me too, now that I am sick. I think the changing season may have something to do with our feelings. I hope that you are feeling a bit better today.
My heart goes out to you. I still grieve my Mom & Dad, but they say losing a kid is harder. My M-I-L loss her daughter. My M-I-L was in her 70\'s when her niece died. It was hard on her & I think it kinda made her numb from it all. Life goes on for us with & without pain. We do the best that we can. Memories get stirred up around the holidays. You have lots of support here with your DS friends. We are all dealing with some kind of pain. Sending a big hug to a sweet looking lady.