Sad

I can not believe I choose the wrong path yesterday. Yesterday was a bad day I allowed my to do crack with weed I have not done in over 10 years the coke that is. My whole body is shacking again, man I can not believe this I have to all back over again. I am so disappointed in my self. I am going to a NA meeting this afternoon. I do not know if I want to face those people today. I was weak cause I thought one more time before I have to go to some kind of program. I am just so frustrated!!!