scared

Sick of crying 
Tired of trying
yeah, I'm smiling
But Inside I'm dying!
Dr's  tells me that the medication takes time. How much time can I give them. I have not sleep in about two days. The medication make me not hungry so I have to fake that I am eating. I want to hurt myself but I have to stay strong! My mind can only be so strong. I feel like I am going crazy. The one thing that help "pot" I do not think its so bad? I am not hurting myself!