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david called last night and said he and laura were coming down this weekend and would I like to have dinner Friday night, this meaning me cooking. at first my mind blanked out the events of that night and said great ill get a pizza, they wouldn't get here until 7:30. I told him about my new job, we talked a bit, I mentioned the windows and the sealing of them and asked if he could still help. of course he said I thought you and colleen got them done, said no colleen couldn't come down. david said what, is laura just supposed to sit around while I work for 4 hours on the windows, no not happening. asked could you come another weekend, I will be taking a 4 day weekend next weekend, no mom I cant and wont. fine. so we hung up and bingo brain came alive and I remembered that Friday is lyns yearly Halloween party at 7 and I am going at 6:30 to help set up. I couldn't believe I forgot it. so I tried calling no answer, then texted saying the above. he said that's to bad so I guess no dinner. replied, I do want to see you and im sorry I just wasn't thinking, maybe sometime on sunday says he. well, he is busy it seems all the time and what do u know, I am busy. sadly I don't feel very bad, he is not making any effort to me, hasn't, and I am not changing my plans. it is to funny that it is the same person, my fear friend who he wont invite because he cant stand her!!! f you.
lyn has been by my side through all the eating problems and much so during this recent turn of events, just supportive, understanding that it just wont hange that I just cant eat and be done, she simply wants me to be happy with myself and food and every step I take she cheers me on. love her so much
I have spoken to lyn about the doctors visit and the situation
lyn has been by my side through all the eating problems and much so during this recent turn of events, just supportive, understanding that it just wont hange that I just cant eat and be done, she simply wants me to be happy with myself and food and every step I take she cheers me on. love her so much
I have spoken to lyn about the doctors visit and the situation
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Its sad that things have gotten so painful between you and David. Reading your journal a couple of things sprang to mind. Firstly if David suggests dinner on Friday then it means hes taking you to a restaurant. Secondly I couldt help but think that Davids helping with the windows doest mean that Laura has to sit around. She could also help with the windows, go for a jog, cook dinner etc. etc. Of course I dont know David and Laura personally so these thoughts may seem weird to someone who does! I hope that things well get better between you and David and Laura but for now just enjoy the Halloween party and allow yourself some quirky Halloween treats!
*hugs* I\'m sorry that David is being so inconsiderate. He should respect your plans and not be so stuck at it being this weekend. I hope you have fun at your party.. you deserve a good time!
I have thought the same things about laura, she doesn\'t have to sit there and he wont even mention it to her which is just another way to not help. Kathy you have them nailed. colleen started talking to me last night about david and myself, I should stop telling her things, I love her and we have become friends but I have to be careful. she says I need to show david I care even though he is a pain and he told her one time not to long ago I think after our awful ohone call, that I think he is an asshole. at times I do think so. doesn\'t mean I don\'t love him, but colleen kept at it and I had to say I needed to go. I have tried a lot with none \"talk\" through text so I am not considered needy, and I love him but I don\'t have to like how he is right now, and it has been a lot of his life, he is not easy to talk with. I will go and enjoy the night and see all sorts of costumes, looking forward to it.
they came over Saturday afternoon around 3:30 and laura was actually warmer then usual and david was okay. however I decided to open up and tell them about my doctors apt and what I have to do or decide to do. they were both supportive! I said that I used to go to a cognitive therapist who did work for me but had to stop as I couldn\'t afford the 200 a month, laura said it would be cheaper then the hospital, don\'t think so, and david never once said he would help out!!! I also said the nutrionist will be costly and still no offer. I know I sound like a greedy bitch but if he is so concernied why not help me? I said there are no support groups, laura looked up OA meetings and I said I would go to the one yesterday. I know I need help, cant do it alone, I am still not eating breakfast this morning but bringimng it with me.