yesterday
went to the ortho doctor, not much happened except am to take prescription dose of alleve for 2 1/2 weeks then come back and get a cortisone shot. my knee was x rayed and it showed extreme arthritis, esp on one side, so the cortisone shot is rather useless, ive had them before, work for a bit then that's it. no talk about work, though I told him what I do and how many hours a week. ah well, that's why I didn't want to go, what was the point, I knew nothing could be done.
i went to visit my friend lyn after the appt. and we talked, she gave me an article toead about anorexia and woman who still battle in the "older" yrs. funny though the article spurred me into talking what I have going through, she is my b/f for 50 yrs., and I told her about my weight loss. I hadnt told anyone in my personal life and she wasn't happy or understood why i was thrilled when i saw i had lost weight. now she had read this article and later I did, and she is usally understanding, though we have never had a frank open discusssion, she was countering all i was saying. I know she meant it in the best way, but it is clear her understanding of the disease isnt quite there. well at least i was open and honest with her and tried to explain my irrataional thoughts and behaviours, stating that I know they are wrong and intellectually I know better. I usually back down from arguing back, as I feel I cant win but I did yesterday. maybe I new milestone for our friendship.
brought back a jacket to sears, didnt want to spend the money, but I ended up buying a pair of pants for work, and a pair of pants that I love. so much for willpower. it is amazing how i have the willpower and control over food but not for money.
i went to visit my friend lyn after the appt. and we talked, she gave me an article toead about anorexia and woman who still battle in the "older" yrs. funny though the article spurred me into talking what I have going through, she is my b/f for 50 yrs., and I told her about my weight loss. I hadnt told anyone in my personal life and she wasn't happy or understood why i was thrilled when i saw i had lost weight. now she had read this article and later I did, and she is usally understanding, though we have never had a frank open discusssion, she was countering all i was saying. I know she meant it in the best way, but it is clear her understanding of the disease isnt quite there. well at least i was open and honest with her and tried to explain my irrataional thoughts and behaviours, stating that I know they are wrong and intellectually I know better. I usually back down from arguing back, as I feel I cant win but I did yesterday. maybe I new milestone for our friendship.
brought back a jacket to sears, didnt want to spend the money, but I ended up buying a pair of pants for work, and a pair of pants that I love. so much for willpower. it is amazing how i have the willpower and control over food but not for money.
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I totally understand about people in your life not \"getting it\" i havnt and wont discuss my eating disorder with family. The kids i think have an idea about it.... they question me all the time about my eating (lack of eating) and even though i do my best to hide it from them they are getting to the point of noticing something is very different with my diet as compared to theirs. Adults in my life....friends, husband, extended family..... i just think would not understand the distorded thoughts that go along with this and would just say to me .... \"just eat!\" So i keep it to myself. Im happy you was able to have a talk about it with Lyn even if she fully doesnt get it you was brave enough to go out on a limb to talk about it.
I do same with will power .... im so strong with ED thoughts but yet other areas of my life im so WEAK...... why is that?
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*hugs Ann* I hope your friend can understand someday. It means so much when someone gets you. ED is a curse.... she has to understand. I\'m sorry you lost weight... you are getting close to having to go to the hospital.. I just got out, and you don\'t want to go there. It\'s not fun. You do need the help, even if your ED tells you you don\'t. *hugs* I\'m here for you!
a curse indeed. so happy to see you larissa! it still makes me wonder why I cant get some kind of hande on it,t is so confusing.