JOURNAL, 7-7-07 Saturday Been an off day. Not much motivation to do anything. Slept a lot and only accomplished making dinner and buying Deb half a bathing suit. The top half couldn’t be made to fit right.        Walt stopped by to get camping gear and Remmy realized he wasn’t going to summer camp, but Remmy didn’t really seem too bothered. I wish we could have gone but the money just isn’t here to do it.        I just got the tax bill its $1500. I thought they would bill you art in the summer and part in the winter but this bill says this is the whole years tax. Remmy’s tuition and our bad habits are killing our disposable income faster than we can earn it. If Remmy and I we’re to go camping Deb would have to take the week off, as well as our expenses. It would be $300 alone to cover basic camp fee not to mention gas and incidentals.        My computer modem didn’t come in the mail today like I expected so I’m stuck offline until Monday 3pm at the soonest. I have bill to pay and I hope it doesn’t through me off. So all I can do to occupy myself is journal here instead of on the net like usual. The old lady is watching some global warming rock concert for 24 hours with a bunch of has been and wanna be bands that are looking for their 15 min of fame. Today is just sort of a (– 7) all the way around. With a bad mood.        I think it would be great to quit smoking tomorrow and stop drinking mountain dew just cold turkey. But why? I’ll be able to get more done in a day but I’ll probably end up spending more money to get those things done than if I just stayed lazy. And it doesn’t keep Deb from pissing away $400 a month on shit like smoke and cigarettes and Pepsi.        I’m supposed to be walking and cutting grass everyday and just haven’t been motivated to do it for a few days now, it’s a good thing that there has not been any rain so the grass is not out of control. But the back yard could still use some help that is for sure. I did use my big exercise ball today though so I did get some exercise today.        I don’t know life is just frustrating today at least now it did start out okay though maybe a (+3) overall till about 1 or 2pm. To add to the frustration is the old lady in the back ground pretending to be ranting about rock and roll and politics and how she is a pro about how everyone else’s private and public lives have gone when she has done enough pot she can’t even remember her own past. Ignorant whore, -whoops Freudian slip.        Well enough rant for now pills, pills and sleep again ‘nite all.