THANK GOD FOR DIAZIPAM, IT'S BEEN ONE OF THOSE DAYS WHEN THE STRESS WOULD BE KILLING ME. I HAVE AN APPRAISER COMING TO THE HOUSE TOMORROW MORNING AND NEEDED TO DO A REAL GOOD HOUSE CLEANING.
AND THE OLD LADIES FRIEND NEEDS A RIDE HOME AT 2AM AGAIN.
I WOKE UP AND MY BACK WAS SCREAMING IN PAIN I REALLY MUST HAVE SLEPT WRONG I DONT THINK I'VE EVER HAD THAT HAPPEN BEFORE AT LEAST NOT THAT BAD.
THE WIFE AND SON WERE BOTH HOME ALL DAY AND THAT JUST ADDS TO THE STRESS.
I HAD SOME FUN MAKING DINNER, I GOT SOME REALLY LEAN CUT RIBEYES FROM THE STORE THE OTHER DAY AND WITH THE RIGHT SEASONING THEY CAME OUT MELT IN YOUR MOUTH PERFECT. WITH BUTTER AND HERB POTATOES AND BAKED BEANS I ALMOST OVERDID IT.
BEEN CONCERENED ALOT THE LAST COUPLE DAYS ABOUT HOW MUCH MEDICATION I PUT IN MY BODY AND THE LONG TERM EFFECTS I GET AFRAID IT WILL LEAD TO ME NOT TAKING AS MUCH AS I SHOULD OR EVEN STOPING. A LOT OF PEOPLE SUGGEST ALTERNATIVE THERAPY AND HOLISTIC MEDICIAN BUT THEY DON'T KNOW HOW BAD MY MENTAL HEALTH REALLY IS. I KNOW THAT THOSE ARE NOT OPTIONS FOR ME.
MABYE SOON THEY WILL FIND ANOTHER SAFER BETTER DRUG OR EVEN A CURE. (WISHFULL THINKING) THIS IS SOMTHING I AM JUST GOING TO HAVE TO LIVE WITH THE REST OF MY LIFE.
COUPLE MORE VALIUM AND OFF TO BED WE WILL SEE WHAT TOMORROW BRINGS...
AND THE OLD LADIES FRIEND NEEDS A RIDE HOME AT 2AM AGAIN.
I WOKE UP AND MY BACK WAS SCREAMING IN PAIN I REALLY MUST HAVE SLEPT WRONG I DONT THINK I'VE EVER HAD THAT HAPPEN BEFORE AT LEAST NOT THAT BAD.
THE WIFE AND SON WERE BOTH HOME ALL DAY AND THAT JUST ADDS TO THE STRESS.
I HAD SOME FUN MAKING DINNER, I GOT SOME REALLY LEAN CUT RIBEYES FROM THE STORE THE OTHER DAY AND WITH THE RIGHT SEASONING THEY CAME OUT MELT IN YOUR MOUTH PERFECT. WITH BUTTER AND HERB POTATOES AND BAKED BEANS I ALMOST OVERDID IT.
BEEN CONCERENED ALOT THE LAST COUPLE DAYS ABOUT HOW MUCH MEDICATION I PUT IN MY BODY AND THE LONG TERM EFFECTS I GET AFRAID IT WILL LEAD TO ME NOT TAKING AS MUCH AS I SHOULD OR EVEN STOPING. A LOT OF PEOPLE SUGGEST ALTERNATIVE THERAPY AND HOLISTIC MEDICIAN BUT THEY DON'T KNOW HOW BAD MY MENTAL HEALTH REALLY IS. I KNOW THAT THOSE ARE NOT OPTIONS FOR ME.
MABYE SOON THEY WILL FIND ANOTHER SAFER BETTER DRUG OR EVEN A CURE. (WISHFULL THINKING) THIS IS SOMTHING I AM JUST GOING TO HAVE TO LIVE WITH THE REST OF MY LIFE.
COUPLE MORE VALIUM AND OFF TO BED WE WILL SEE WHAT TOMORROW BRINGS...
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Hey 666, don\'t worry about all the medication, you don\'t want to die with a healthy liver anyway, what was it for then? ;)
yum that dinner sounds good, my head hurt to bad to cook today, I hope that chick can get a new way home or something... Im sure that takin alot of pills isnt great but its better than goin without em... I wouldnt worry to much!!! Have a good night!!
hope things go ok for you on the house
I agree with Jen, the dinner does sound pretty good!!!LOL I go back and forth with the holistic meds verses regulated ones. I know people that are having to aget there blood work double checked as I write this due to taking the red yeast rice for chlosterol and there liver count was high. So I done know, I really dont think when it comes to mental health issues I would want to mess with the meds. I have to be on cymbalta for my head aches and anxiety and all the other things life likes to throw at you. But as I say life is waht you make of it, and just take one day at a time. Hang in there!!!!!! Going to check on my Romeo ( abused horse that came into my life)!!!!!!!:)