i HAD A BREAK DOWN TONIGHT WATCHING TV.I WAS WATCING DOG WHISPERER AND THEY TALKED ABOUT WHAT IT WAS LLIKE TO PUT A DOG DOWN. IT JUST HURT TOO MUCH SINCE MY 12 YEAR OLD WENT DOWN 3 MONTHS AGO THERE HAS BEEN ONE OTHER BREAKDOWN. THE MEMORY OF HER LAST PAINFUL BREATHS JUST RUN THROUGH MY MIND THE FEELING SHE HAD OF ACID BURNING THROUGH HER VEINS AND SHE WHIMPERED TO HER DEATH. THERE IS NOTHING HUMANE ABOUT IT.
THE REAL BITCH IS IF I HAD ANOTHER 40$ I COULD HAVE HER PUT TO SLEEP FIRST SO SHE WOULD HAVE JUST DREMT THE PAIN TWO VALIUM AND SOME TEARS LATER AND IM JUST NUMB AGAIN. I STILL HAVENT VOCALIZED OR DELT WITH IT TO ANY ONE. I SEE MY DOCTOR SOON AND IM AFRAID HOW SHE WILL REACT AND HOW I WILL REACT.
EMOUGH ABOUT HER BEFORE MORE TEARS FLOW.
i just don't know what to do. MY OLDLADIES FRIEND NEEDS A RIDE HOME FROM WORK EVERY NIGHT AT EITHER 2OR3 AM AND I NAVE TO BE UP AT 630 TO GET MY SON OFF TO SCHOOL OR MY OLDLADY TO WORK BY 8. IM JUST NOT GETTING ENOUGH SLEEP.
MY MENTAL HEALTH SUFFERS FROM LACK OF SLEEP AND I KNOW IT HURTS MY PHYSICAL HEALTH BECAUSE IM TOO TIRED TO EXCERSISE OR DO ANY THING PRODUCTIVE BECAUSE I AM TIRED ALL OF THE TIME.
THE REAL BITCH IS IF I HAD ANOTHER 40$ I COULD HAVE HER PUT TO SLEEP FIRST SO SHE WOULD HAVE JUST DREMT THE PAIN TWO VALIUM AND SOME TEARS LATER AND IM JUST NUMB AGAIN. I STILL HAVENT VOCALIZED OR DELT WITH IT TO ANY ONE. I SEE MY DOCTOR SOON AND IM AFRAID HOW SHE WILL REACT AND HOW I WILL REACT.
EMOUGH ABOUT HER BEFORE MORE TEARS FLOW.
i just don't know what to do. MY OLDLADIES FRIEND NEEDS A RIDE HOME FROM WORK EVERY NIGHT AT EITHER 2OR3 AM AND I NAVE TO BE UP AT 630 TO GET MY SON OFF TO SCHOOL OR MY OLDLADY TO WORK BY 8. IM JUST NOT GETTING ENOUGH SLEEP.
MY MENTAL HEALTH SUFFERS FROM LACK OF SLEEP AND I KNOW IT HURTS MY PHYSICAL HEALTH BECAUSE IM TOO TIRED TO EXCERSISE OR DO ANY THING PRODUCTIVE BECAUSE I AM TIRED ALL OF THE TIME.
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Ur old lady\'s friend needs to find another ride. You need to take care of yourself before you can start taking care of everyone else. My therapist once told me (in the middle of me making excuses on why I didn\'t want to ask my professor for extra help) that there was nothing wrong with asking, and that he was a big boy and would say no if it\'s not something he thinks he can do. We all need to live by that, ask what you want of others because they need to be adult enough to tell you if they cannot do what you ask. You cannot do what she asks anymore so you should tell her she needs to work out another ride. It\'s one thing if it\'s the middle of the day but she is asking a lot for you to be up till past midnight to give her a ride, I am sure she knows this and she is an adult and has managed without ur help in the past, she will be just fine without you now.
I am sorry about ur baby girl passing away, I worked at an animal shelter for a while and I know the pain you feel for her, if there is anything I can do to help you cope let me know.
Stay strong
Laurel
You are not her taxi, It is not rude to tell her to figure out another ride she can call a cab!! dont feel guilty!!! Im sorry for your loss, I lost my boy dagon a lil more than a year ago, it was awful, I feel for with that!! I hope that you feel better!!! get some rest!!!!