WELL HERE IT IS ALMOST 4AM AND I AM HERE. MY MT HEART BOTHERING ME STILL. MY OLD LADIES FRIEND KEEPING ME AWAKE UNTIL 3 AM FOR A RIDE HOME FROM WORK AND I HAVE TO TAKE MY SON TO SCHOOL IN 3 HOURS.

I ALREADY TOOK MY PILLS SO THE SLEEP EFFECT HAS WORN OFF. I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS WORKING ON MY NERVES MORE MY MT HEART OR MY PISSED OF LACK OF SLEEP SHIT. ONE OF THEM HAS GOT TO END SOON.

MY MT MT HEART CAN ANYONE EVER FILL MY MT MT HEART. I CAN SEE HER AS IF IT WERE LYESTERDAY AND A PEEK AT THE HIGH SCHOOL YEARBOOK DOESN'T HURT EITHER LOL. I WONDER IF THINKING OF HER SO MUCH IS SOMEHOW MAKING UP FOR THE LOSS OF MY DOG 2 MONTHS AGO. I'VE BEEN PUMPED UP ON MY MEDS SO I COULD GET THROUGH THAT AND MABYE MY MIND IS TRYING TO GET THROUGH THE ORDEAL WITH THE MEMORIES OF MY MT'NESS.

I LIKE THIS PLACE IT HELPS ME UNWIND FROM DAYS LIKE TO DAY AND GIVES ME A PLACE TO PUT MT THOUGHTS OUT THERE AWAY FROM JUST MY MIND. IT SOUNDS SO WIERD BUT MY SOUL YEARNS FOR ITS MT HEART.

WELL I'M GONNA FINISH THIS SMOKE AND HEAD TO BED THINKING OF MT THOUGHTS.

FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO DONT KNOW MT ARE THE INITALS OF MY ONE TRUE LOVE FOR OVER 22YEARS NOW (BUT SHE DOESN'T KNOW)