MY MT HEART HAS MADE MY TUMMY RUMMBLY, I WENT TO ONEOF THOSE PEOPLE FINDER SITES AND FOUND WHERE SHE IS!!!!
OHH THIS MAY GET ME IN TROUBLE SHE HAD GOTTON MARRIED WHICH I KNEW BUT SHE HAS FOUR SEPERATE ADDRESSES IN RECENT YEARS IN THE SAME AREA. THIS MAY SHOW SHE IS UNSTABLE BECAUSE SHE IS IN AND OUT OF APARTMENTS BECAUSE SHE IS SEPERATED OR DIVORCED AND JUST USING HER EX'S NAME STILL. THE SITE PROVIDES HER CURRENT ADDRESS AND PHONE WHICH MEANS THE PHONE IS IN HER NAME...HMMMMM.
I JUST CANT BELIEVE THAT SHE IS STILL IN MY MIND THIS MUCH AFTER SO LONG I WOULD STILL HAVE EVEN THE URGE TO LOOK HER UP ON THIS STUPID INTERNET.
I'VE ALREADY ACCEPTED THAT I WILL ALWAYS HAVE AN MT HEART BUT I WONDER IF I SHOULD JUST LEAVE IT AT THAT.
BUT I GOT A GREAT NIGHTS SLEEP LAST NIGHT AND GOT UP WITH LOTS OF ENERGY. I DON'T HAVE MUCH ON THE SCHEDULE FOR TODAY AND TOMORROW IS PAY AND BILL DAY.
I ALWAYS LOVE BILL DAY AND MAIL TIME IT MAKES ME FEEL WORTHWHILE BEING ABLE TO DO SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE.
WELL RIGHT NOW I'M GOING TO BE UNPRODUCTIVE AND HANG OUT AROUND HERE.
OHH THIS MAY GET ME IN TROUBLE SHE HAD GOTTON MARRIED WHICH I KNEW BUT SHE HAS FOUR SEPERATE ADDRESSES IN RECENT YEARS IN THE SAME AREA. THIS MAY SHOW SHE IS UNSTABLE BECAUSE SHE IS IN AND OUT OF APARTMENTS BECAUSE SHE IS SEPERATED OR DIVORCED AND JUST USING HER EX'S NAME STILL. THE SITE PROVIDES HER CURRENT ADDRESS AND PHONE WHICH MEANS THE PHONE IS IN HER NAME...HMMMMM.
I JUST CANT BELIEVE THAT SHE IS STILL IN MY MIND THIS MUCH AFTER SO LONG I WOULD STILL HAVE EVEN THE URGE TO LOOK HER UP ON THIS STUPID INTERNET.
I'VE ALREADY ACCEPTED THAT I WILL ALWAYS HAVE AN MT HEART BUT I WONDER IF I SHOULD JUST LEAVE IT AT THAT.
BUT I GOT A GREAT NIGHTS SLEEP LAST NIGHT AND GOT UP WITH LOTS OF ENERGY. I DON'T HAVE MUCH ON THE SCHEDULE FOR TODAY AND TOMORROW IS PAY AND BILL DAY.
I ALWAYS LOVE BILL DAY AND MAIL TIME IT MAKES ME FEEL WORTHWHILE BEING ABLE TO DO SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE.
WELL RIGHT NOW I'M GOING TO BE UNPRODUCTIVE AND HANG OUT AROUND HERE.
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How long has it been since you talked to her? I have one of those, it was 9 years since i talked to him last, I looked him up, & we communicate often, I too am married now! The thing is that if your in contact it is a constsnt reminder & i feel i will never heal! I probably will ache forever but I had to know how he was, But it really does add a whole new level of pain!!! I now know he feels the same way & it makes things hurt more!!! Good luck!!!
Be careful. If you look her up and she\'s not exactly the way you remember, it might dissapoint you. And I don\'t know the whole situation with you two but could it be possible that her relationship was the last one you had where it ended before the really hot spark fizzled some, so that\'s how you remember her. You might be after a spark that isn\'t there anymore. I know I look back fondly on my past relationships whenever me and Jer go through a fizzleless week or two, but I know it wasn\'t actually the guys I want, it\'s just that new relationship feeling that you can never really duplicate.
My favorite one to remember is a punk rock boy, we both dyed our hair together, mine was bright pink, and his was orange. He loved me, but I didn\'t really love him, I loved the excitement of it all.
I\'ve seen him around, he does a lot of drugs, he works in town (an old farming town) at a drive thru hamburger joint, he is really smart, but just never got up the momentum to get out of town. It\'s sad to see him now, so I just avoid him and keep our memories to myself.
My thoughts are the opposite of everyone else\'s, look her up and give her a call, she could feel the same way you do.
You never know who will answer if you never call and if you have wondered about her for this long it will only continue until there is some type of closure.