MT THOUGHTS AGAIN ALL DAY. WILL THIS MT HEART EVER GO AWAY? I HOPE NOT.

DR APPTS AND CATCHING UP ON SLEEP KINDA A EECH TYPE OF DAY. STOPPED DRINKING MAOUNTAIN DEW YESTERDAY JUST TO SEE IF I COULD WAS DRINKING 4 LITERS A DAY. IT MAY HELP WITH SOME OF MY HEALTH ISSUES AS WELL.

STAYING AT 3500MG OF DEPAKOTE SEEMS TO BE OKAY FOR NOW AT LEAST IT IS SOMEWHAT CONTROLING MY MANIA BUT IT MAKES ME SLEEPY.

I'M GETTING TIRED OF FIGHTING, TIRED OF ALL THE APPTS ALL THE TIME, TIRED OF NO SEX LIFE TIRED OF NO REAL LIFE.

YOU KNOW WHAT I MISS THE MOST IS CELEBRATION PARTIES. YOU KNOW WHEN YOU AND A GROUP HAVE DONE A HARD LONG JOB OR WON A SPORT EVENT FINISHED A SCHOOL PLAY. THE FUN OF LIFE THE FUN OF YOUTH. OH TO BE JUST 10 YEARS YOUNGER. 20 WOULD BE BETTER. 30 AND I'D BE THE MOST SEXUALLY ACTIVE MIDDLE SCHOOLER IN THE STATE LOL

WELL ENOUGH FOR TO DAY MABYE BETTER TOMORROW