"JUST ONE" Just one feeling... JOY; Just one emotion... LOVE; Just one desire... YOU; JUST ONE ROSE --TRSc1982
memories of my MT heart. I sure am thinking about her an awful lot these days. I wonder if there is some kind of psycic thing and she is thinking about me too?
I'm glad though too that she doesn't know me now. I couldn't bear the thought of putting her through bearing with me and my health problems everyday.
It would be nice to hold her hand through hers though. To be her light in the forrest. Then I could make my issues seem small.
Is that why I'm with my old lady? I know that I'm the best she could get, problems and all. And knowing she is messed up too just justifies my reasons.
I have a dream about if I would have met MT again 10 years after seeing her last, we being 28. Before my illness was such an issue/at least diagnoised and how I could have been the man of her dreams as she has been the woman of mine for; 22 years now. In my dream we would have and could have been everything to each other.
I only dream when I'm awake now. My medication won't let me dream at night.
At least I don't ever remember any dreams anymore. Mabye thats a good thing. I don't know.
Do you think you could make love to someone eith just a simple hug. I knnow you can make love in your mind; I have MT love affairs daily. It's just that that is the most special time I will ever remember that first MT hug, and how I long for one now.
Thhinking about my MT heart is making me sad so I think I will end my journal for today. I will have MT thoughts before I fall asleep again tonight as I have every night for the last 22 years. Good night my MT love Good night.
memories of my MT heart. I sure am thinking about her an awful lot these days. I wonder if there is some kind of psycic thing and she is thinking about me too?
I'm glad though too that she doesn't know me now. I couldn't bear the thought of putting her through bearing with me and my health problems everyday.
It would be nice to hold her hand through hers though. To be her light in the forrest. Then I could make my issues seem small.
Is that why I'm with my old lady? I know that I'm the best she could get, problems and all. And knowing she is messed up too just justifies my reasons.
I have a dream about if I would have met MT again 10 years after seeing her last, we being 28. Before my illness was such an issue/at least diagnoised and how I could have been the man of her dreams as she has been the woman of mine for; 22 years now. In my dream we would have and could have been everything to each other.
I only dream when I'm awake now. My medication won't let me dream at night.
At least I don't ever remember any dreams anymore. Mabye thats a good thing. I don't know.
Do you think you could make love to someone eith just a simple hug. I knnow you can make love in your mind; I have MT love affairs daily. It's just that that is the most special time I will ever remember that first MT hug, and how I long for one now.
Thhinking about my MT heart is making me sad so I think I will end my journal for today. I will have MT thoughts before I fall asleep again tonight as I have every night for the last 22 years. Good night my MT love Good night.
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I don\'t know if you\'ll find this comforting or not, but I don\'t think your medical issues would have effected your relationship with MT because when you\'re in love, all you really have to do is love the other person, and if they love you, they won\'t ask anything else of you. your body seems to be hindering your mind, and it shouldn\'t be that way, you say that you deserve worse because of your medical problems but you deserve whatever makes you happy. medical problems aside. Stay strong.
Ps no yahoo, just msn.
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I am touched by your entry, I hope that your heart will heal, I understand that pain... I hope that you will feel better today...