NOT GOOD NOT BAD, JUST OKAY. ACUALLY A RATHER UNEVENTFUL DAY.
IT WOULD BE NICE TO HAVE MORE OF THESE, BUT I KNOW THEN I WOULD MISS THE RUSH OF MANIA AND DO SOMETHING STUPID LIKE QUIT MY MEDS.
I KNOW IT IS JUST MY MEDS KEEPING ME FROM BEING ON A MANIC EPISODE RIGHT NOW I PROVED THAT TO MYSELF THE PAST WEEK WHEN I PLAYED WITH NOT TAKING MY MEDS. THE BAD PART OF THAT IS I KNOW THEN THAT A DEPRESSION IS COMING SOON. AND THOSE ARE THE ONES I REALLY HATE.
EVERYONE STRUGGLES THROUGH LIFE SOMETIMES IT FEELS LIKE I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO STRUGGLES THE WAY THAT I DO. IT IS GOOD TO BE HERE WHITH OTHERS WHO CAN RELATE TO LIVING THE WAY I HAVE TO. THERE ARE SO MANY IN THE WORLD WHO HAVE NO IDEA OR ARE SO MESSED UP THEMSELVES AND DON'T EVEN KNOW IT.
I KNOW TOO MANY YOUNG PEOPLE WHO TRY SOMTHING LIKE SUICIDE OR ARE DIAG WITH DEPRESSION OR PSYCHPHRENIA AND THINK THAT AFTER 6 MONTHS OR SO THEY CAN QUIT TREATMENT AND WILL OUT GROW IT. SOME CAN BUT WHEN YOU SEE THEM 3 YEARS AFTER STILL LIVING WITH DESTRUCTIVE BEHAVIOR LIKE ALCHOL OR SOCIAL DRUG USE NOT REALIZING THEY ARE JUST SELF MEDICATING UNTIL THEY DO SOMETHING STUPID AGAIN.
WELL AT LEAST I'VE ACCEPTED MY PROABLEMS AND AM WILLING TO CONTINUE TO WORK ON LIFE. SO FOR NOW IT IS DAY BY DAY, WEEK BY WEEK.
IT WOULD BE NICE TO HAVE MORE OF THESE, BUT I KNOW THEN I WOULD MISS THE RUSH OF MANIA AND DO SOMETHING STUPID LIKE QUIT MY MEDS.
I KNOW IT IS JUST MY MEDS KEEPING ME FROM BEING ON A MANIC EPISODE RIGHT NOW I PROVED THAT TO MYSELF THE PAST WEEK WHEN I PLAYED WITH NOT TAKING MY MEDS. THE BAD PART OF THAT IS I KNOW THEN THAT A DEPRESSION IS COMING SOON. AND THOSE ARE THE ONES I REALLY HATE.
EVERYONE STRUGGLES THROUGH LIFE SOMETIMES IT FEELS LIKE I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO STRUGGLES THE WAY THAT I DO. IT IS GOOD TO BE HERE WHITH OTHERS WHO CAN RELATE TO LIVING THE WAY I HAVE TO. THERE ARE SO MANY IN THE WORLD WHO HAVE NO IDEA OR ARE SO MESSED UP THEMSELVES AND DON'T EVEN KNOW IT.
I KNOW TOO MANY YOUNG PEOPLE WHO TRY SOMTHING LIKE SUICIDE OR ARE DIAG WITH DEPRESSION OR PSYCHPHRENIA AND THINK THAT AFTER 6 MONTHS OR SO THEY CAN QUIT TREATMENT AND WILL OUT GROW IT. SOME CAN BUT WHEN YOU SEE THEM 3 YEARS AFTER STILL LIVING WITH DESTRUCTIVE BEHAVIOR LIKE ALCHOL OR SOCIAL DRUG USE NOT REALIZING THEY ARE JUST SELF MEDICATING UNTIL THEY DO SOMETHING STUPID AGAIN.
WELL AT LEAST I'VE ACCEPTED MY PROABLEMS AND AM WILLING TO CONTINUE TO WORK ON LIFE. SO FOR NOW IT IS DAY BY DAY, WEEK BY WEEK.
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foot by foot, inch by inch, centimeter by fucking centimeter. . . LOL!
I\'m just glad you got back on your meds. It\'s so dangerous to be off of them, (albeit much more exciting)and I\'m glad you made the decision to go back. Hang in there--God has more in store for you than you realize!