something new ...ONE OF MY FRIENDS HERE ASKED ME WHY I REFER TO MY OLD LADY AS "MY OLD LADY"
I'VE INCLUDED MY RESPONSE, BUT I DON'T KNOW IF MANY OTHER PEOPLE CAN RELATE OR UNDERSTAND MY REASONING
ts 13.17 so lets see if i can do it in 43 min.
As you may know I am bipolar. I met her before being diagnoised and there is a part of my desiese perhaps O.C.D. I always had a habit of looking for needy people so i could fullfil my own selfesteem by helping them. My self esteem was pretty low when I met her.
I was less than two years divorced from my high school sweetheart; we had been married a little over 6 years. The worst part was I am a very christian/religeious person. Our marriage was unified by God with certain understandings of faith and she betrayed them.
Once my ex wife got rremarried less than 1 year later,(that is the commission of adultry by scripture not the lust of infidelity) I was freed by my faith to again love and join in marriage. Of course I went for the first and most needy person I could find.
We knew each other for 2 1/2 years before getting married and had a son remmington. Shortly after I experienced my first mental episode and was hospitilized by the US Military. That is when my recovery began and our relationship began to change.
I now see her for what she always wanted to be. Just like her mother never wanting to do anything necessary more than to survive. No goals no motivation no HOPE. The healthier I get the farther apart we have grown.
We have come to understand that we only love each other as friends would and view each other very differently. Most days I see her as a waste of human flesh...since my son was born she had been a stay at home mom doing nothing but eating sleeping smoking pot and nagging. Not much nagging she is usually too stoned to care. Since I retired, she went back to fast food work part time just to get away once in a while. I'm home all the time, unless I have a doctors appointment and then she is inconvienced by watching remmy all day.
We will probably stay married until remmingtoon is 18-25 and can care for himself then who knows. I wont remarry unless she does and I am sure she will find some other man willing to trade favors with and remarry soon after.
Until then I just focus on me and Remmington
THank you for asking my meds keep me from dwelling on such things but it is good to get it out once in a while. It's just sad the better I get the less she cares or trys.
I'VE INCLUDED MY RESPONSE, BUT I DON'T KNOW IF MANY OTHER PEOPLE CAN RELATE OR UNDERSTAND MY REASONING
ts 13.17 so lets see if i can do it in 43 min.
As you may know I am bipolar. I met her before being diagnoised and there is a part of my desiese perhaps O.C.D. I always had a habit of looking for needy people so i could fullfil my own selfesteem by helping them. My self esteem was pretty low when I met her.
I was less than two years divorced from my high school sweetheart; we had been married a little over 6 years. The worst part was I am a very christian/religeious person. Our marriage was unified by God with certain understandings of faith and she betrayed them.
Once my ex wife got rremarried less than 1 year later,(that is the commission of adultry by scripture not the lust of infidelity) I was freed by my faith to again love and join in marriage. Of course I went for the first and most needy person I could find.
We knew each other for 2 1/2 years before getting married and had a son remmington. Shortly after I experienced my first mental episode and was hospitilized by the US Military. That is when my recovery began and our relationship began to change.
I now see her for what she always wanted to be. Just like her mother never wanting to do anything necessary more than to survive. No goals no motivation no HOPE. The healthier I get the farther apart we have grown.
We have come to understand that we only love each other as friends would and view each other very differently. Most days I see her as a waste of human flesh...since my son was born she had been a stay at home mom doing nothing but eating sleeping smoking pot and nagging. Not much nagging she is usually too stoned to care. Since I retired, she went back to fast food work part time just to get away once in a while. I'm home all the time, unless I have a doctors appointment and then she is inconvienced by watching remmy all day.
We will probably stay married until remmingtoon is 18-25 and can care for himself then who knows. I wont remarry unless she does and I am sure she will find some other man willing to trade favors with and remarry soon after.
Until then I just focus on me and Remmington
THank you for asking my meds keep me from dwelling on such things but it is good to get it out once in a while. It's just sad the better I get the less she cares or trys.
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WOW THAT FELT GOOD
Gosh! I\'m sorry to hear you\'re in such a fruitless marriage. Why doesn\'t your \"old lady\" drive herself and her friend to work? I mean it\'s the least she could do to keep you and your son safe.
Caly - the reason she doesn\'t is she never has nor never wants a drivers license proving once again her desire to do as little as possible to get by in this world
o.k. now I do not feel as bad. Sorry you are son unhappy in your marriage. I do understand staying together because of a child, but I have a question, what kind of example is she setting for your son?