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Well, i finally scheduled a dr. appointment.  I'm afraid to go because I don't want to admit that my brain isn't normal. I've always felt like if everyone could just keep up with me then the world would be o.k. But sometimes, of course, I feel like if I could just disappear the world would be better.  The medicine will make my life more successful, but will I just be falling into what everyone else wants me to become.  I don't want to live my life to just be what everyone thinks I should be.  Why can't life just be safe for everyone, even me.  I don't even fuckin' know anymore.  Everything seems so confused and so fuckin' out of reach.

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I felt like that too when I first went to see my doc. But I\'m so glad I did. And of course the shock of being diagnosed took a day or two as well, even though I was already expecting it. Its tough, but just keep in mind that it will help in the long run, and that you have a strong future ahead of you. This is just deleting an obstacle that would stand in your way otherwise. plus, you have us. *hugs*