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I have been so manic lately and now I just dropped.  All shit just hit the fan and exploded all over everything.  I was driving home thinking about the different things I was doing that seemed like mania (grinding my teeth, racing thoughts, crazy eating patterns) and then I just dropped.  My muscles felt like I took a muscle relaxer, my eyes drooped, my heart started racing and my breathing became painful.  What the fuck is the matter with me.  So, I'm here with this family for the summer and they are all anti-mental illnesses.  I can't let them know what's wrong with me.  So when I see them I duck into the other room and make some lame joke to make myself chuckle while walking away.  I don't want anyone to know that my brain just fuckin' shut off. My heart feels like it has just been buried.  I just dug a huge fuckin' hole and placed my bleeding, beating heart straight in the dirt!!!