Why did you just leave me to suffer on my own? why did you turn a blind eye to it and refuse it was happening? more importantly why did you neglect me?. two whole years of my life have been destroyed and are only a blur to me. I fought with every ounce of motivation and willpower i had to stay alive and it only just worked. You told me off and got angry every time i found a way to cope, and yes i know i shouldn't have self-harmed  and drank alcohol but you were just there to tell me off, not help me which i craved. I even told you i need help and my crys for help just got ignored. Yes you had your own problems with my dad dieing but when he got a little better I was at my worst and i just got shoved to the side as usual, and my brother got all the attention once again. You say i'm strong and that iv done well and got out of depression but you refuse to talk about it with me when i need clarity and i need to see that you cared, but i get nothing.
I thought you loved me mom how could i be any more wrong.  :'( x