My body wants one thing, and my mind wants the sme thing. Reality makes it's apperance, n says that it doesn't want me to b happy, because I don't deserve to be. I really like you, and I wnna b wit u, it doesn't ceem that it will happen, because there are 2 many things against us. i can't imagine life without you. Wen u come back i get 2 2lk 2 u and iron few fings out. These 3 weeks are the longest and most painfullest weeks in my life. My heart is holding onto the fact that mybe we could still b 2gether, but i know that we can't. So y is denial so strong, wen i'm in a huge amount of pain through this anywys. Y did i have 2 change, i wnted us to 2lk wen there were problems, but obviously thats somat we ddint do. My trust issues, and my depression gave me pain, and it's replaced it wit more physically crushing pain. I can't tke it anymore. I wnt u bac even tho uv treated me like crap, I can't stand all the torment, please i jus nd one speck of gd luck, jus enough to stop the pain, mke everyfing better  :'(