How much can I serioulsy take. yh yesterdy was a drunken mistake, but it was the first time i felt gd, now it won't happen again, n all iv wanted ws u 2 give us a chance, cuz u do lik my comapny n u enjoy being out wit me, u sed so. So yh i will have 2  stop liking u, ur my best friend. This major crush has caused me 2 gte depression, has drove me 2 self harming, n has mde me a pre- alcholic, so this is closer 2 love I think, I think bout u everydy, every second of the day, so instead i have 2, b ur best friend which i like, but i have 2 stand there n c u close up, cuz u neva open up 2 anyone. U sy u r alone n thats the wy it will stay. That upset me cuz ur my best friend, so I feel less of a friend now. I help u n giv u honest answers wen it comes 2 girls that u like, which is the most painfullest thing i know, buit i do it, cuz i love u as a friend, its not my cahracter 2 b mean n nasty n selfish, so i dont. Its jus the pain really hurts, n i jus wish it will stop, cuz i'm 2 low 2 try n get bac up on my own, uv crushed me, i actually do love u, but u dont feel it, n thats the whole point of my mental health gettin dangerous, cuz this has gone on 4 half a year n i nd 2 get over this feeling so i can b the best friend im supposed 2 b. But i dont listen cuz i have a constant battle between my body n my mind.