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Yesterday I told carlos even more. How I like women too. That was interesting.
That was rough. But since then we talked. We are going to be civil and stay together but not get married. We may end up separating in the end, but who knows. Right now I think it is a 45/55 chance of staying together/separating.
We are going to go to counseling. I asked him if he could live without sex, he said he yes. Except for having a child obviously or the rare occasion I feel he deserves it. And we are going to take things a day at a time. I feel good about this.He says he will give me freedom. I told I still need a lot of time to process things.I need to figure things out and he needs to determine how he feels about the fact I like girls. And this is not a gurantee things will work out. But I'm happy with this decision because it works for me. Because in not sure I want him to disappear from my life just yet.Dad told my aunt. She is really proud of me. She said that my cousin told her that she wasnt sure our relationship would last when she met the two of us together last summer. She told that to my aunt but of course would of never said that to me until this all came up. That's interesting.Talked everything over with dad.
I feel so good- free!!!! Everything is out!!! I wouldn't be surprised if carlos walks out still but that's okay and understandable He still needs to process things. At least things are not that awkward.My dad made a good point. Maybe Carlos is saying yes to everything because he doesn't eant to lose me- prob right. So maybe it won't last. Well we will see. If it doesn't then it doesn't. That's okay. This is a good step. It's not a guarantee but it's a near term solution. And I yold my dad I'm not hiding anything anymore including the fact that we are marriedI feel freeeee. I can fly!! If I get feelings for somronr else I will let them grow! I will go out with friends!! I will do what I eant.
That was rough. But since then we talked. We are going to be civil and stay together but not get married. We may end up separating in the end, but who knows. Right now I think it is a 45/55 chance of staying together/separating.
We are going to go to counseling. I asked him if he could live without sex, he said he yes. Except for having a child obviously or the rare occasion I feel he deserves it. And we are going to take things a day at a time. I feel good about this.He says he will give me freedom. I told I still need a lot of time to process things.I need to figure things out and he needs to determine how he feels about the fact I like girls. And this is not a gurantee things will work out. But I'm happy with this decision because it works for me. Because in not sure I want him to disappear from my life just yet.Dad told my aunt. She is really proud of me. She said that my cousin told her that she wasnt sure our relationship would last when she met the two of us together last summer. She told that to my aunt but of course would of never said that to me until this all came up. That's interesting.Talked everything over with dad.
I feel so good- free!!!! Everything is out!!! I wouldn't be surprised if carlos walks out still but that's okay and understandable He still needs to process things. At least things are not that awkward.My dad made a good point. Maybe Carlos is saying yes to everything because he doesn't eant to lose me- prob right. So maybe it won't last. Well we will see. If it doesn't then it doesn't. That's okay. This is a good step. It's not a guarantee but it's a near term solution. And I yold my dad I'm not hiding anything anymore including the fact that we are marriedI feel freeeee. I can fly!! If I get feelings for somronr else I will let them grow! I will go out with friends!! I will do what I eant.
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what a relief it must be to get everything out. telling carlos about liking girls must of been a huge block between you, now the 2 of you can, as you say, process things. i am happy for you that you are not keeping anything in and that you feel so free.