No more difficult decisions or situations. I forbid any more to occur. I am done. I have no more energy or brainpower to make anymore big decisions.
Friday I realized that the holidays are just around the corner. Fuck!! So....that essentially means less therapy appointments.
Joanna said she is thinking of taking Dec 22 & 23 off as well as Dec 26 but would be abvailable for my usual appointments on Dec 28 & 30. Sucky news is that I leave on Dec 27 or 28 (depending on my work schedule) to go to Florida and will not be back until Jan 4 or 5. So basically I will have no therapy from Dec 22- Jan 6. I hate this shit. As I think about it now I am crying. Fuck. 15 days no therapy. This is like when she was on vacation in July and then I was on vacation the following week. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. Worse than Thanksgiving. I hope and pray that the vacation will go so smoothly that I will be fine- but it's with my parents so who the fuck knows what will happen. 
I have been really on edge this weekend. Every little thing has thrown me off. Blah. Last night I went over my shift by 15 minutes and on my way to the back to clock out guess who i ran into, my fucking inlaws. AHHHH. Apparently they are getting two puppies next weekend- omg they are in for it big time. they have no clue what they are doing. I spent the next 1 1/2 hours helping them around the store....AFTER MY SHIFT ENDED. and therefore missed out on a craft/holiday thingy at Max & Karen's. GRRRRR
Off to work now- closing tonight. Then Opening Mon/Tues/Wed this week. Asked for an increase in hours...only got bumped up to 33 hours this week. Blah

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deleted_user
deleted_user

I think 33 hours is plenty. You need some time to chill.
You will be fine without joanna, just like you were the last time. I guess you are still seeing jill, so maybe you can pour your heart out there a little. And don\'t worry now, wait till the time comes and then take one day at a time.
ann54
ann54

you will be so busy during those 33 hours it will feel like 50. i think 33 is enough, plus so much other shit going on. are you seeing jill? as karin said, take it day by day, projecting has always made me worse, you made it through before and i am confident you can do so again, use us to vent and support. hugssss oh, really suck about in laws, they should know better.