Saturday was much better than my shitty Wednesday, Thursday and Friday.
I failed to mention all that happened on Thursday that made the day so bad. First I had to open at PetSmart, my shift was from 6am-12pm, and i only slept maybe an hour the prior night. That is actually my favorite shift because there is a lot to do and I am busy nonstop for 6 hours. But within the first 15 minutes of my shift I stepped in cat shit. Awesome. I was cleaning out the cat cages in the adoption center, pulled out a blanket (which a cat apparently shit on), the shit fell on the floor (i didn't notice)....and mush- i stepped in it. Super.
Had some bitchy customers, but whatever they are all assholes. Then the plant tank overflowed and water went everywhere.......spent forever mopping it. When returning the mop bucket to the back room, I spilled it everywhere. Super. When feeding the snakes, none of them were eating.....so I literally had to hand feed them baby mice. Awesome. Then the manager, Donny, fucked up my schedule for this upcoming week by giving me shifts during the times I specifically said I could not work and more than 25 hours....so I left him a nasty note.
Then as I was leaving, I changed, got my stuff and took out my phone. Had many text messages and one was from Joanna. It said, "I have to cancel our appointment today. I am sorry, but I am sick. Please confirm that you received this." I didn't even finish reading the message before I burst into tears. I thought I was over being that emotional. I thought I was better at controlling myself.
Cried for over an hour. Still crying when I went to walk my one dog. After that, I honestly do not remember what I did the rest of the day. I think I went home and then Carlos suggested we get cfoffee and go to the bookstore. Oh, I did have another dog walk which I made Carlos go with me on. He enjoyed it actually. I didn't want to eat anything- I was so emotional that I think I made myself sick to my stomach. Eventually at 930pm Carlos was starving and ordered pizza. Had me eat two slices. After slice one, I was hungry. So I ate another. Then I ate 3 of Carlos' pizza crusts. What a fucking fat ass. I regreted that so much the next day.
I just feel like a complete obese whale. I still do. Yesterday my food intake was low, so I had an additional supplement, then ate a lot of nuts before I went to bed. Now this morning I feel so disgusting. I can't believe that I ate all that. Why did I have that extra supplement. I am sure I went above my meal plan. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Off to work in an hour now. Working quite a bit this upcoming week. Wednesday 6a-12p. Thursday 6a-12p. Friday 330p-930p. Saturday 7a-1230p. Sunday 1p-630p. Plus 7 dog walks and 2 cat visits.
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I failed to mention all that happened on Thursday that made the day so bad. First I had to open at PetSmart, my shift was from 6am-12pm, and i only slept maybe an hour the prior night. That is actually my favorite shift because there is a lot to do and I am busy nonstop for 6 hours. But within the first 15 minutes of my shift I stepped in cat shit. Awesome. I was cleaning out the cat cages in the adoption center, pulled out a blanket (which a cat apparently shit on), the shit fell on the floor (i didn't notice)....and mush- i stepped in it. Super.
Had some bitchy customers, but whatever they are all assholes. Then the plant tank overflowed and water went everywhere.......spent forever mopping it. When returning the mop bucket to the back room, I spilled it everywhere. Super. When feeding the snakes, none of them were eating.....so I literally had to hand feed them baby mice. Awesome. Then the manager, Donny, fucked up my schedule for this upcoming week by giving me shifts during the times I specifically said I could not work and more than 25 hours....so I left him a nasty note.
Then as I was leaving, I changed, got my stuff and took out my phone. Had many text messages and one was from Joanna. It said, "I have to cancel our appointment today. I am sorry, but I am sick. Please confirm that you received this." I didn't even finish reading the message before I burst into tears. I thought I was over being that emotional. I thought I was better at controlling myself.
Cried for over an hour. Still crying when I went to walk my one dog. After that, I honestly do not remember what I did the rest of the day. I think I went home and then Carlos suggested we get cfoffee and go to the bookstore. Oh, I did have another dog walk which I made Carlos go with me on. He enjoyed it actually. I didn't want to eat anything- I was so emotional that I think I made myself sick to my stomach. Eventually at 930pm Carlos was starving and ordered pizza. Had me eat two slices. After slice one, I was hungry. So I ate another. Then I ate 3 of Carlos' pizza crusts. What a fucking fat ass. I regreted that so much the next day.
I just feel like a complete obese whale. I still do. Yesterday my food intake was low, so I had an additional supplement, then ate a lot of nuts before I went to bed. Now this morning I feel so disgusting. I can't believe that I ate all that. Why did I have that extra supplement. I am sure I went above my meal plan. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Off to work in an hour now. Working quite a bit this upcoming week. Wednesday 6a-12p. Thursday 6a-12p. Friday 330p-930p. Saturday 7a-1230p. Sunday 1p-630p. Plus 7 dog walks and 2 cat visits.
blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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Well thursday was literally a shitty morning. Hope you catch a break on your next shift. Your manager probably just misunderstood you, so give him a break and let him fix your schedule. I don\'t think leaving nasty notes will help your work relationship with him.
Sorry your appointment got cancelled. And it\'s ok to be emotional about it. Sometimes therapists cancel at the worst times and I feel abandoned even though I know that is ridiculous, but hey feelings are feelings. Glad you got to spend some time with Carlos. Your food intake sounds all over the place. How is it organized? Do you have to eat by cals or foodgroups? I have to eat by foodgroups and I think that\'s the easiest way to follow it. I\'m sure you\'ve heard this before but it is best to have set times to eat and eat even when you\'re not hungry. I know this whole thing sucks and I can\'t wait tiill I can just eat like everybody else, actually listening to my body not my nutritionist. Try to just stay on track right now, don\'t restrict or increase because you are confused about your intake. When do you see Jill again?
Thanks Karin. Everything got sorted out at work- doing what I did is the only way to work with Donny. Otherwise it goes in one ear and out the other! Schedule works well now!
As for meal plan- it\'s organized via exchanges. Exchanges for meals and exchanges for snacks. My journal is extremely organized regarding it too. I\'ll take a picture and post it on here lol. I see Jill on Tuesday and I see Joanna tomorrow.
Today was actually a really good day at work :)
Glad today was better for you then the rest. I Hope that you don\'t have to work with Donny very much.
I wish you the best for when you see Joanna and Jill this week.
:)
wow, what a shitty day from the get go. work can really suck, it seems one day its one thing after another. glad yesterday was better. how do the exchanges work? it must be so hard to do, and being emotional is only being human. im not hungry either when im like that, but i have to force myself to eat what i do eat. happy your seeing joanna and jill. sorry i didnt respond sooner. many hugsss