Doing well with food again.
Up and down moods.
Extremely horrible body image.
Lots of ED thoughts.
Yesterday in therapy my head WAS there, but I kind of had a fake mood. I didn't allow my self to feel any emotions. I am either in a bad mood or a great mood. And if I am in a great mood I push away all of my emotions so that they can't ruin it.
We talked about how my mind shoots in 30 different directions and how it is hard for it to stay on topic. She asked me how I am able to study and do well in school. I told her that I probably only hear half of what a professor says during class and it takes me a very long time to study for an exam due to me losing focus etc. Joanna then asked me if I was ever on ADD medication. I said no. She asked if I had ever been tested for ADD. I said no. She asked if I had ever thought that I might possibly have ADD. I said yes. She was surprised that I had not been tested for it and that I have been as successful as I have been.
I really want to know my weight. Real bad.
Up and down moods.
Extremely horrible body image.
Lots of ED thoughts.
Yesterday in therapy my head WAS there, but I kind of had a fake mood. I didn't allow my self to feel any emotions. I am either in a bad mood or a great mood. And if I am in a great mood I push away all of my emotions so that they can't ruin it.
We talked about how my mind shoots in 30 different directions and how it is hard for it to stay on topic. She asked me how I am able to study and do well in school. I told her that I probably only hear half of what a professor says during class and it takes me a very long time to study for an exam due to me losing focus etc. Joanna then asked me if I was ever on ADD medication. I said no. She asked if I had ever been tested for ADD. I said no. She asked if I had ever thought that I might possibly have ADD. I said yes. She was surprised that I had not been tested for it and that I have been as successful as I have been.
I really want to know my weight. Real bad.
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Good point about the ADD. If that\'s the case and you get meds you just have to be careful because they can kill your appetite. But definitely worth checking out. I know my weight and I\'m fine with it but I\'m coming more to terms with my new body than you right now, so knowing your weight is probably not a good idea. Maybe ask jill for a range.
I know that you would like to know your weight but as long as you look good and feel good that should be all that matters. I have been on the other end and over weight most of my life and now that I have learned to eat the right way it is really just a number. You are very preaty. and by the massages you send I can tell you are very sweet and careing. please just take care of your self.
For the ADD that pop in my mind when I first started to read today. If you are teasted and put on meds please be careful.
Stay warm as fall is coming back to us. :)
it makes sence that you may have add, but as karin says it can dull your appetite, so you will have to be extra careful and consume what you need to. you are not out of ip all that long and i feel that not knowing the weight is a good thing right now, esp since you are having bad self image and bad ed thoughts. i am NOT saying this is easy at all. fight it hard steph, i am there with you.