Tried sleeping in this morning but my head was killing me and I couldn’t. Still exhausted upon wakening. Last night when I took my meds I realized that I only had one verses my calcium. Hmm I was excited because I thought that maybe I was missing my trazadone which would make sense. Compared the pill to my morning pills…nope, it was trazadone. So apparently it looks like the past few nights I have not taken my Lamictal. I take 200mg in the morning and 100mg at night. FUCK. But that still does not explain my terrible sleep patterns. Damnit.
Still at my parent’s house. Immediately upon awakening my mother asked me to go eat breakfast. I didn’t want to since I was still full from last night, but I did. Then I got criticized for not finishing my milk in my cereal bowl. Seriously? Who the fuck cares. Then I was on the couch finishing up my Bacterial Unknown Report for Microbiology and then making playlists on my computer for her iTunes so that she can play them at Cap Sprints on July 9th (the Regatta my family is in charge of). She comes up to me and is like, I hate it when all you guys do is lounge on the couch downstairs and play on your computers, you are so lazy. Well guess what, fuck you. I’m doing something for you, I’m not at my house and so I don’t have anywhere for my computer. At home I only use it on my desk. So buzz the fucking fuck off. I finished the playlists, burned them onto Cd’s as well as my PowerPoint report. So now I’m upstairs on my computer and hers burning the CD’s on her computer, naming all the songs and putting all the shit together for her. She comes in and says she is making lunch and asks me what meat I want on my sandwich. I asked what she had and she said liverwurst Oder schinken from Deutschland. UGH, I don’t want either because they are both so god damn fatty. Plus she always puts a TON of butter on sandwiches- tonight and tomorrow while at home I am going to definitely have to eat lightly. I know the all the fat I ate yesterday and now today is going to go straight to my gut and hips. GROSSSSSSSSSS
I just wish she could appreciate some of the things that I do for her and not bitch at me constantly. It’s never ending and to be quite honest I am sick and tired of this shit. She asked me to help her out and I am. But all I get is shit on. She also asked me to get some HS volunteers for next weekend, I did and I just get crap from her. Lastly she asked if I could be a launch driver to drive the referees around on the water for this race from 7:30-11:30am…and I agreed. You think she would be pleased. GAHHHHHHH
Still at my parent’s house. Immediately upon awakening my mother asked me to go eat breakfast. I didn’t want to since I was still full from last night, but I did. Then I got criticized for not finishing my milk in my cereal bowl. Seriously? Who the fuck cares. Then I was on the couch finishing up my Bacterial Unknown Report for Microbiology and then making playlists on my computer for her iTunes so that she can play them at Cap Sprints on July 9th (the Regatta my family is in charge of). She comes up to me and is like, I hate it when all you guys do is lounge on the couch downstairs and play on your computers, you are so lazy. Well guess what, fuck you. I’m doing something for you, I’m not at my house and so I don’t have anywhere for my computer. At home I only use it on my desk. So buzz the fucking fuck off. I finished the playlists, burned them onto Cd’s as well as my PowerPoint report. So now I’m upstairs on my computer and hers burning the CD’s on her computer, naming all the songs and putting all the shit together for her. She comes in and says she is making lunch and asks me what meat I want on my sandwich. I asked what she had and she said liverwurst Oder schinken from Deutschland. UGH, I don’t want either because they are both so god damn fatty. Plus she always puts a TON of butter on sandwiches- tonight and tomorrow while at home I am going to definitely have to eat lightly. I know the all the fat I ate yesterday and now today is going to go straight to my gut and hips. GROSSSSSSSSSS
I just wish she could appreciate some of the things that I do for her and not bitch at me constantly. It’s never ending and to be quite honest I am sick and tired of this shit. She asked me to help her out and I am. But all I get is shit on. She also asked me to get some HS volunteers for next weekend, I did and I just get crap from her. Lastly she asked if I could be a launch driver to drive the referees around on the water for this race from 7:30-11:30am…and I agreed. You think she would be pleased. GAHHHHHHH
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My advice: spend your weekends somewhere else.
your mother sounds like a very toxic person. why do you keep doing things for her when all you get is critized. i ask that because i do the same thing, though not as much anymore. i do it because i want thier love, ever seeking. however, i know that this issue with your mother has been ongoing and only causes stress, anxiety an ed issues. i like karrins adive, stay someplace eles.