Tears

Dear God it has been a little over two years since you took my sweet baby back Home. Every night nowI go to sleep.my eyes full of tears as I fall asleep praying for some kind of understanding some type of peace that keeps my my heart so broken.  I pray for your protection of my family too.  I love you Jesus with all my heart. I hope you will help me have the strength the  strength to keep holding on.  Life can hit so hard sometimes please help me to understand. Be my Rock to hold on to. Help me to forgive. Help me not to hurt so much that ken is gone. Help me to learn that I learn and find some purpose. Mostly please hold him deep in your arms to be surrounded by your love and that ha knows my deep love for him.  
 
Thank you for my family. For my strong Kenny  and for the  love you give us. Take care of my baby please. I love you. Thanks for loving me. Love sandi and Ken's mom

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deleted_user
deleted_user

Oh, Sandi, I sooo understand that prayer.....My journey has been a little longer than Yours (5 1/2 years)...so this may only come with time...But I am so happy to tell You that JESUS has healed my \"Spirit\" of grief...not to say I don\'t still miss Matt...But that tremendous \"Grief Spirit\" is lifted...I will pray that for You..it is so freeing to be able to \"love\" Matt with the good memories, and the knowing He is w/Jesus and happy! We WILL see them again...Praise Jesus....Blessings, Patti (Matt\'s Mom)...
deleted_user
deleted_user

I am so sorry for your pain! Hugs!!!
deleted_user
deleted_user

a precious prayer that I say all the time....we can never quite have the whole peace here on earth but we can come close.....and Jesus is with us through it all....it is good to know that if our sons cannot be with us here on earth that they are in the arms of Jesus at peace forever....I envision that Jesus must have a very busy schedule answering the prayers of bereaved mothers who want Him to hold their child....and He does. Love, dale..brandon\'s mom
Hooksr
Hooksr

I said a prayer for you today
That all your pain would fade away.
That you would feel His love for you
Surround your soul your whole day through.

I asked the Lord to give you peace
And that your worries would decrease.
I asked for joy and laughter too
And that He\'d make your gray skies blue.

I prayed that if you just can\'t cope
That He would shower you with hope.
I prayed He\'d take away your fears
And that He\'d wipe away your tears.

I prayed and asked that you would feel
His gentle hand reach down and heal.
And when you feel down and depressed
I asked the Lord to give you rest.

He knows you may not understand
But He has all of your days planned.
He\'ll never leave you this is true
He\'s with you every moment through.

We all do struggle in our life
Trials we face that brings us strife.
Just lean on God and others now
And you\'ll get through it all somehow.

You see I love you very much
And I pray you feel God\'s gentle touch.
Surround your heart and soul each day
As you keep trusting in His way.

I said a prayer down on my knee
That your pain and worries would just flee.
I said a prayer for you today
And everyday for you I\'ll pray.

Hugs,
Ron
mummar
mummar

Thinking of you - sending love and peace to you. Joanna x
inmemoryofhattie
inmemoryofhattie

sending you wishes for comfort and peace.....
Pauljac49
Pauljac49

Sandi, my heart aches for you. Its only 10 months for me and I cry myself to sleep every night as I talk to Jackie and look for signs from her. I hope our grief will lessen in time. Thank God for this site. With much love, Gail
KandL
KandL

Sandi, Your prayer is beautiful and heartfelt and your prayer could have come straight from my lips too. Jesus is your Rock and He will heal your hurt, over time. You will miss Kenny forever but the pain will be gentler and over time you will know there is but a thin veil between you and your son. Jesus loves him even more than you do (hard to imagine but I believe He loves Ken & Ed more than us, divine love) and He is holding our boys close and safe. I understand your pain. No pain is worse than this...Tight hugs, Linda
RememberKala
RememberKala

Tighest of hugs my sweet friend....
ter1
ter1

I also pray that you find peace and comfort in your day. Love to you and Ken. Terry
heartsandhands
heartsandhands

A beautiful and loving prayer, lifted up with a mom\'s loving heart. May your prayers be answered.
xox Sarah
NellW
NellW

Sandi, that was beautiful. My heart just breaks for you and all the Moms here.
Hoping for you some peace.
Your friend,
Nell
PLA58
PLA58

Sandi so many nights crying ourselves to sleep. This seems more common ritual than you think. I still have those nights also.
warm tight hugs for you Penny
MomofJosh
MomofJosh

Sandi, the journey we are all on is just not fair! There is something that reminds us of our loved lost one a dozen times a day. We just have to believe that the moms who have gone before us tell us that it does get easier.
With love,
Leda