monday

its been a bad couple of days on the anxiety front.Saturday night I could not sleep.I finally got up around midnight and took an extra half of buspar.Sunday morning was even worse that was the worst anxiety I have had in a long time. I have no idea where it came from.I was better today. Most of the day I was pretty good although I'm having mild anxiety this evening. Its nothing like it was on Sunday morning though. Is it because things are starting to slow down? I have no idea.school is out for the holidays and later this week I'm going to Arizona to see my mom. Historically when things slow down is usually when I do have anxiety. The winter is always worse for sure.journaling is a good way to keep track of what is going on but sometimes I am too tired to type it all out so I am experimenting with voice.so far Google is not doing too bad of a job at keeping up with me
 
I am tired and lonely and anxiety has been draining me. I checked out a new website called anxiety zone. Its okay I guess.I'm kind of amused by the way technology is catching up to science fiction. I was searching for some apps were u could Audio journal. I laughed when I saw one called captain's log. It got me thinking though about Star Trek and how far fetched we used to think that was that someone could actually tell the computer to take a message and save it to be listened and played back later and now here we are. After all, I just wrote this entire journal by voice entirely.okay that's not entirely true I did have to correct the word buspar.