Just another day
The edginess and anxiety have continued on and off. Last night it woke me at midnight. Finally got back to sleep. My stomach was kind of bothering me..guess that is what was going on. It has continued this morning. Only 4 weeks left of the semester but the workload has been increasing in difficulty. This is about the time I start to wonder why I took two classes instead of one LOL. As usual there is not much being offered for the summer session. I might be able to at least get my PE requirement out of the way. I asked a girl in my programming class to take a pilates class with me for the summer.
Still trying to nail down my trip to see my mom and as I predicted my new boss gave his notice. Of course although I am the one that has been holding everything together in the department they will not even consider me for the position..you know I'm not qualified LOL. That's fine with me though. I honestly don't want to be that close the the owner all the time and this way I can still focus on school. I realized I am running out of time to complete my degree before I leave this awful state. The only good thing I ever said about California was this BOGS waiver that has allowed me to go back to school. I never could have afforded it otherwise. Arizona does not have any such assistance so I need to finish in the next three years.
I just feel very alone today. He was pretty drunk again last night and although he was not mean or obnoxious once he fell asleep in the chair I could not wake him. When I awoke at midnight having the anxiety attack I was still alone. Lately he has had a couple of panic attacks of his own. You would think that after experiencing something like this himself that it would make him more sympathetic to how it makes you feel. but umm NO.
Sometimes you just want someone to hug you and say it's all going to be ok....even if it's not LOL
Still trying to nail down my trip to see my mom and as I predicted my new boss gave his notice. Of course although I am the one that has been holding everything together in the department they will not even consider me for the position..you know I'm not qualified LOL. That's fine with me though. I honestly don't want to be that close the the owner all the time and this way I can still focus on school. I realized I am running out of time to complete my degree before I leave this awful state. The only good thing I ever said about California was this BOGS waiver that has allowed me to go back to school. I never could have afforded it otherwise. Arizona does not have any such assistance so I need to finish in the next three years.
I just feel very alone today. He was pretty drunk again last night and although he was not mean or obnoxious once he fell asleep in the chair I could not wake him. When I awoke at midnight having the anxiety attack I was still alone. Lately he has had a couple of panic attacks of his own. You would think that after experiencing something like this himself that it would make him more sympathetic to how it makes you feel. but umm NO.
Sometimes you just want someone to hug you and say it's all going to be ok....even if it's not LOL
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