I am worse than alone..I have people that want to lean on me and cannot even take care of myself. 
someone suggested to me that he is not an alcoholic if he can go all day until after work without a drink.
They are right.  Which only leaves me as the problem.  Why shouldn't he sleep in the living room.  Who the hell in their right mind would want to be near a fucking wacko like me?  I don't even want to be around me. 
 
AND WHO THE HELL CARES ANYWAY?????