a new day

It is a new day but I do not feel any better.  I hope to be able to study some on my breaks throughout the day but it's only a quiz and in the end it won't really matter.  I called the cabin last night as I got ready for bed.  His best friend answered...said he was out already..and had been since about 8pm...yeah I said...welcome to my world...he said he told him he needs to pace himself...I said Yeah? and how did that go...he said well he just looked at me like I was crazy..I just laughed and said yeah...that's about right.  I said well you can tell him in the morning that I checked in like a good girl and there were no men at the house so I wasn't cheating or doing anything else I'm not supposed to be doing.  He said he'd make a note of it.  We both laugh but he had heard first hand the names I used to get called and the accusations I used to get...actually I have him to thank for the verbal abuse to have stopped. 
God Damn....why am I already ready to cry?