Well yesterday pretty much sucked.  we did not get the house we were offering on.  HE proceeded to drink...loud, obnoxious,slurring...yeah great load of fun.  No anxiety to speak of though thank god.  although I did not feel very well and didn't eat much dinner.  I don't know why I stay.  He is never going to quit drinking.  Things may be ok for a while but something happens like yesterday and here we go again.  Not looking forward to this evening that's for sure.  I wish I could afford to live on my own but here in CA with animals?  At least my animals are happy to see me when I come home.