Women who Love too Much Community Group
WHEN BEING IN LOVE, MEANS BEING IN PAIN... This group is to help women through the journey of realizing they can love themselves. To help realize that they are capable of having a happy, healthy, whole relationship and break the cycle of abuse and heartache from loving emotionally unavailable men.
Im going through this stage now, where i have serious trust issues, in people, men, anyone in general.
i watch very closely how people interact together. i watch the people around me. and it seems everyone is an N. i know this isnt true necessarily, however i OVER analyze people now. one small tinsy narc tendancy, and my red flags all go up. i have this gigantic need to defend myself. its hard to just let things go. i want to call everyone out on everything... i get angry when people lie, even a small little bit... even embellishments. anyone, even perfect strangers. like someone at work saying they had 4 shots of primo tequila, when really they had 3 shots of the house stuff. its hard to find myself amongst the paranoia.
i know i probably have some ptsd issues going on, and im working on getting medical for myself to take care of some of that. but still... really, how do you know who is truly a narc and who isnt when you are so guarded against it?
i watch very closely how people interact together. i watch the people around me. and it seems everyone is an N. i know this isnt true necessarily, however i OVER analyze people now. one small tinsy narc tendancy, and my red flags all go up. i have this gigantic need to defend myself. its hard to just let things go. i want to call everyone out on everything... i get angry when people lie, even a small little bit... even embellishments. anyone, even perfect strangers. like someone at work saying they had 4 shots of primo tequila, when really they had 3 shots of the house stuff. its hard to find myself amongst the paranoia.
i know i probably have some ptsd issues going on, and im working on getting medical for myself to take care of some of that. but still... really, how do you know who is truly a narc and who isnt when you are so guarded against it?
now one person.. invited me out for my birthday on saturday to go see a couple bands, she told my BF to tell me when he got home and call her. i talked to her the next day.... and she was like oh, well yah... this is who's playing, but i dont think i have an xtra ticket... you would have to buy one, they are like 50 bucks if theyre not sold out already. i just thought you would want to know about it. you can come if you want.
now obviously she doesnt want me to go, but why would she invite me then? really? WTF.
this is also a person who is a floor supervisor, who came up to me, and said just so you know, you didnt get fired because our boss is a softie... a customer complained about you and you almost got fired.
and basically that was it.. the customer that complained did so 5 months ago. said that i have to watch what i say to people, and that they dont understand me and take me wrong when i talk to them.
my BF got demoted , which is a good thing cause he made more money in his previous position.
however, then my sister gets suspended, all after i was talked to. i would just like to know what i did to piss anyone off. im never late, i dont hang out with anyone, and i follow the rules.
it just seems the world is full of decietful and narcissistic people. at work. at home. at the gas station... everywhere. its almost overwhelming. i think part of it is because its hard to just let it roll off my shoulders when its constant. my roomate is crazy driving me nuts and im stuck with her.
your right susy, i do need me time. it seems like the clock is always on fast forward,
the other day i had a couple hours to myself for the first time in a long time.. it was wierd. the clock slowed down... i had time for everything i wanted to do.. and it was nice.
no one home but me. my roomate was late on rent this month... i hope she does it again so that we can boot her. its up to the landlord, im concerned he will boot all of us out.