I have belonged to this discussion group for several years now. The support has really been great. It has been helpful to check in periodically to hear other women echo the same sentiments I'm feeling. It takes a long time to gather the strength to make such a big move. For the past few years I've debated whether it's better to stay together, where the kids would see him under the influence only sporadically, but now the drinking has escalated and I can see it's taking a toll on my teenage daughter. It's time to break away. I'm meeting with my attorney tomorrow morning to file for divorce. I feel liberated.