My AH won't drink in front of my mother. So I've found myself coming up with reasons for her to come stay with us for a few days at a time a couple times a month. He is on his best behavior when she is here. It's so weird. She knows because I tell her that he's not sober but he's convinced she's in the dark and he must be on his best behavior. It's sad that I am using my mother for some peace and sobriety (my AH is a binge drinker so it's not every day but when he drinks, he goes all out..). I've started talking to her about moving in with us! I couldn't do that to her...she shouldn't have to live with his crazy....but its tempting... I just know he'd break his rule if she were here all the time.

I just wish I had the answer. I know I don't. I know it's not my problem to solve (thank you al-anon), but on nights like tonight when he's coming down from a binge in preparation for a visit from my mom....it's hard to not dream.

Stay strong ladies. Sending positive thoughts and prayers to all of you...