Am I stupid for not leaving?  It's been less than two weeks since the last broken vow.  "I know you don't believe me but I'm not going to drink anymore I can't loose you." There is a look on his face he gets when drinking is on his mind. I know it before he says it. He drank last night. No mean words or violence said. I asked are you going to the store at first he said he wanted to but wasnt. The second time I asked it was if he was waiting for it. He went of course. If I kick him out he will be homeless and that hurts my heart. He has no where to go to, no money saved, no family. 

My birthday is in a week the big 30. I feel I have nothing to show for it. I've been outta work taking care or my mom she's on her last years and won't make her quality of life better. Also been taking care of his baby cousin who's in a really bad situation. She 14 smart and her mom like his, is a violent drunk so she's over here four days a week. If I leave him I don't know if her mom will let her still come over. She came over crying today her mom telling her she is worthless. 

It's too much, feeling trapped.