I have been married now for 23 years. 23 years with a functioning alcoholic. I have been verbally and emotionally abused forever. My father, and now him. He drinks everyday. He goes to work and drinks until he falls asleep. And he binges when he's laid off. For example today I come home from work and 5 minutes in the yelki g begins, not even a hello. I want so much to leave him. My children are over the age of 18 and it's time. It's painful living with him. Every night I fall asleep disappointed and wake up, go to work and forget for 8 hours until it's time to go home again. I can't love him anymore because living him means dealing with him and I just don't want to anymore. 44 years old and not living.