Kimberly: livafterhim is a blog you may find helpful. It is a blog written by a very young widow who now writes on Soaring Spirits blog. I have found reading and sharing with others in a similar situation has helped me after losing my husband. We were in our 50's so although we all share the pain of loss and grief our situations are very different. I am so very sorry that you lost your husband at such a young age. I've met several young women who have been in your situation and I admired them all for the strength and courage they have shown in their lives, including reaching out and helping others in their losses. Their energy and enthusiasm helped lift me so much. I hope you find the support you need to assist you Marybeth

Hi Kimberly,

I am 33 and lost my husband Jim who was 32 on 2/20/2018 very suddenly. At first I felt shocked and deeply depressed. Now that the shock is wearing off I am having very bad anxiety and panic attacks for no real reason during the day. Therapy and support groups are helping, and I am also hoping to start medication to help me function through this new stage of grief. My best advice is to keep talking about it and get professional help if that’s what you feel you need. Losing a spouse is a trauma, and there are unique feelings that come with being a widow so young and so suddenly. I hope you find the support you need through this terrible time.

What a beautiful couple you are. I am so sorry. Sites like this one are so helpful because it's an instant connection to people who 'get it'. Soaring Spirits is a great source for sure. There is a 'Camp Widow' in San Diego in July that I've considered going to. It is suppose to be uplifting and helpful weekend. It has widows from every age group and demographic. I love the Sheryl Sandburg book 'Option B'. It helped to remind me that we can be resilient in our grief and pain in order to lessen suffering. I don't know. I'm still figuring it out but my heart breaks for you. You should have had many many years before having to even think about any of this. Hugs to you.

I'm so sorry for you Dear. I don't have words. I know the younger women can be more of a help. Know that with time, you will heal.. May strength and peace be with you. Hugs, Dolores

My heartfelt sadness to hear about your loss, Kimberly. Here are a few resources hopefully can help you.

https://www.dailystrength.org/group/widows-widowers/discussion/a-letter-to-myself-as-a-new-widow
https://www.huffingtonpost.com/amy-morin/young-widow_b_7232554.html
https://www.nytimes.com/1987/02/11/garden/young-widowed-and-new-to-self-help.html
They are located in the Virginia Beach area:
http://www.ywow.org/

My heart goes out to you, Kimberly. I was 38 when I lost my husband. Good friends that will stick with you and pray for you and cry with you are a help. I just didn't have the strength to deal with it myself. I turned to God and found strength and comfort in Him. I would have a cup of coffee with Him each morning, the way I used to do with my husband. I would pour out my heart to Him. It takes a long time to grieve. God was and is very patient with me.

I'm so sorry for your loss Kimberly. You must be feeling so many raw emotions right now...I was 34 when my husband passed away. He was 38 and our daughter just turned 4 years old and suddenly I'm a single parent. This site has helped me a lot, even when I can't post anything myself because it was so hard to articulate the myriad of overwhelming emotions tearing me up inside, just reading what the others have posted helps. It helps to know that there are others who will "listen" and understands your pain. It also helps to know that somehow, someday, somewhere down the road (even though it feels impossible to even consider right now), you will find the courage to carry on as others did. It's going to be almost 2 years since I last spoke to my husband, sometimes it still feels like I can't possibly make it another day. I still miss him everyday, I think I miss him now even more. But I also have some days when I can appreciate the warmth of the sun or get lost in my painting ( I started painting after my husband passed away and it's one of the few things that gives me a sense of peace) or when my daughter gives me a hug and I feel almost "normal".

I was 27 when I married my wife and had 30 wonderful years together. We pretty much grew together, and our love just kept growing. Now I'm 60, and think I have found true love again. And it is a good thing. But I've had my share of disastrous relationships simply because I had very poor, no actually non-existent, judgment in my grief. Give yourself plenty of time to allow your broken heart to heal. The loss of the love of our life takes all of us a very long time of healing, and you will find yourself to be a new and different person when you finally come out of this grief that consumes you now. You will eventually find happiness again. I am so very sorry for your loss, and glad you found us here. Scott

I am so so sorry for you loss

Losing the love of your life hurts and just plain sucks ! I lost my husbad of 29 years 10 months and I miss him every single day