She was 29 and I was 31 at the time.

Hey Carmine,
There truly aren't words that help to stop the pain. Just takes time to work thru it. Everyone is different. My wife went to heaven a year ago, so I know it does dull and get better. Reaching out for others does help. You just have to remember that we are all different and handle grief differently. Just do what you need to do that helps you get thru. That is very young to lose someone. My wife was 52 and I 56 at the time. Still young. When here there may be times you just need to vent others you may need advice just reach out. What helped me was to listen to those who had already been where I was going. This is new territory and it helped to hear from those gone thru it.
Take of yourself.
Peace, Tim

Hi Carmine.....So sorry for your loss and the pain you are going through.
I lost my fiancé Jimmy... it's been 16 weeks ago yesterday.
I'm new in the grief stages and probably don't have the best advise at this point but I can tell you that it does help to read other stories of people who can understand and relate to that pain.
It's a very lonely world to be in without the one you love and finding the strength to get through the day can feel impossible at times but as long as you stand up and take the steps to care of yourself each day...You'll find that strength to carry you the rest of the way.
I hope you find peace and comfort tonight and know that there are so many of us that care and understand what you are feeling.....Take care and stay safe

Hi Carmine, I am so sorry for the loss of your wife. She was very lovely. I know it is so heartbreaking that when your loved one goes into a hospice. But just be proud of yourself and take comfort that you were there with her, devoted to her to the end, and remember all the good memories. Of course, the pain of heartbreak on this journey is long, but you will find much comfort, support, and understanding from all of us here who are on that same journey, but different little paths. Take care.
Hugs, Nanette

You are all very kind. I apologize for the typos on the initial post, Darn Iphone. I don't know if it's selfish or selfless but some days are just de-motivating and wrench your gut without her or someone to care for. I thought I was ready to find a companion and had a short relationship end this August and although she says one thing I cannot help but believe it's a lot to accept a Widower into your heart. Maybe these are all necessary experiences to truly know myself and my purpose but it has always been for others and now I feel I push so many away. Do you all find it challenging to keep friends etc from your pasts?

There's a saying here that grief rewrites your address book that many of us agree with for various reasons. People who promise to be there for you get busy with their own life. Some just think grief has a clock to turn off. Most of this thinking is due to the fact they can't possibly understand what we live without our love one. The loneliness is encompassing and many search for a companion to fill the void. I will tell you, no one will ever fill that void. You will find your way of living with it. You will create a new 'who you are ' and define your life again. Only then are you beginning to heal. There's hope for you, the task is in discovering it. Sharon

Carmine...so sorry for your loss. You will find comfort here...it is a safe place to share how you are feeling. Hugs.

Thanks, Sharon and LuLu. Both messages are heard. :)

Tim,

I don't think my message went through but I wanted to thank you and let you know my heart goes out to you big guy. God Bless- Carmine

Thanks again, y'all

Hello "Carmine, I just lost my husband July 28, 2016. We were only married for 18 months. I don't know what to say, because I know how you feel. I never knew that a person could feel so lost with no sense of direction. Everyday I have to think of a reason to continue on. I miss him so much, and I know he is in a better place, but the pain never leaves your heart. I can only tell you that I understand, and I here if you need someone to talk to.

Hello, Tear. I'm SO sorry. You have a mission, we know it. I don't even know where to begin but could use some dialogue for sure!

Carmine, Im sorry your wife passed away. I lost my husband march 1, 2015. I was 44 and he was 52. Theres not a day that goes by that I dont miss him, or tell him how much I still love him. Time allows us to not like it, but to accept it.. its hard to find friends who have experienced a loss of our magnitude. I hope you are having some peaceful days now. I have good days now, but still have some bad/sad days. May god bless and keep you. Much love and hugs carla

Thanks, Carla. I appreciate your kindness.

Your most welcome carmen. We all need each other, despite our sadness. Have a good day, make it a day, to smile about. Find a ray of sunshine, stand in it, and just close your eyes.... and know that you are loved and special, and your wife is still with you... always in your heart, and always spiritually there with you. Much love and hugs carla